by Karen Frazier, Managing Editor
I recently had a friend from church ask me, “How do you reconcile what you do with the paranormal with your belief in God?”
While I don’t make a secret of being an agnostic, I also don’t advertise it at the church that we attend. If asked, however, I will answer honestly.
When my friend asked, I mentioned my agnosticism and then told her that, if I were to believe in God, then the paranormal would fit right in with that belief.
Why? Because wouldn’t a belief in ghosts be indicative of a belief in the immortal soul? And if I were to believe in aliens and UFOs, wouldn’t that serve to acknowledge that the Creator has created an entire universe teeming with intelligence and life?
The thing is, if I do believe in a God, then I believe in a God with whom all things are possible. That is God to me – infinite possibility. The beauty and intelligence that underlies our universe is of that God. Everything that is, ever has been and ever will be is and of that God.
When I say that I am agnostic, I am talking about the God of the church. My agnosticism is about the angry and judgmental God who spends His time watching over us and just waiting to smite us because we don’t toe the line.
When I go to church and pray to God, that is not the God to whom I am praying. Instead, I am praying to that energy which makes up everything and everyone. I am praying to whatever intelligence it is that created everything we see, everything we know and everything we live.
I know this isn’t kosher with many. I get that there are many who feel that I have conceptualized the wrong God, so the right God is going to get me. But I have conceptualized a God who knows that occasionally we get it wrong and is okay with that. I have conceptualized a God who is so bold and expansive that He has the grace to allow us to be the human beings He created us to be.
Many scientists speak of God in just such a way. They live in awe and wonder at just how perfect our universe is in its amazing complexity.
For instance, Albert Einstein said of God, “I do not believe in a personal God and I have never denied this but have expressed it clearly. If something is in me which can be called religious then it is the unbounded admiration for the structure of the world so far as our science can reveal it.”
He also said, “A knowledge of the existence of something we cannot penetrate, of the manifestations of the profoundest reason and the most radiant beauty – it is this knowledge and this emotion that constitute the truly religious attitude; in this sense, and in this alone, I am a deeply religious man.”
To really look at our universe, and to look at all of the possibilities that still exist is to see the God that I know is there. We are nearly as far from discovering and knowing everything as we always have been. But to see the beauty and complexity of the energetic field from which we come and to which we will return is to get a peek underneath the long, flowing robe of the Creator.
Maybe when it comes right down to it, the difference is this: I believe in God, the Creator. I am agnostic about God the Father. This Creator God with whom all things are possible is the God that I can believe in.